Many people, including myself, thought the holidays would be the hardest after losing my Mom but I still have the same feeling I did Mother’s Day, and her birthday – nothing is really different. Ya see, my Mom was so involved in my every day adult life that every day and almost everything reminds me of her so it doesn’t change that it is Thanksgiving. I still walk around feeling a piece of me is missing.
Last Thanksgiving was actually the first Thanksgiving we didn’t celebrate with my Mom and Dad because my Mom was just finishing a treatment and had to stay close to Sloan in NY where she was being treated. I know that I was sort of preparing myself for not having holidays with her because I felt in my gut that the cancer was taking over much sooner than she wanted to accept. It’s something so hard to explain. To spend certain days with or without a loved one thinking that the next day or holiday could truly be one without them. It changes you because you truly understand how quickly life can and will change.
This Thanksgiving we decided to take a cruise just my husband and children. I remember after my Aunt passed away years ago, my family went to the Bahamas for Thanksgiving so maybe wanting to get away triggered something from my past and I thought it would be a good idea. My Mother or myself would normally host Thanksgiving and this year I just didn’t have it in me, but I know that in the future I will again. I will without a doubt continue our traditions we made for some many years for my own children to have as a part of their lives.
Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. I feel like it’s a holiday where it isn’t all about gifts but people coming together and feeling so grateful to be with one another. I hope you and your family enjoy every moment together ❤️ and have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
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